Thursday, November 15, 2012

Breast Cancer

I honestly do not know how to start this blog out. I have no way of making what I have to say "pretty". Today, 15 Nov 2012 at 4:06 pm I got a phone from my Doctor with the result of my biopsy. I was told that I have Breast Cancer. Yes, I have breast cancer at the age of 28. It is still shocking to me. I cried but every time I see or hear or write Breast Cancer I get all teary eyed and I want to break down. I did my crying and I called the family to let them know. I had just got down with my therapy session and I picked up my boys from where my sisters where at. We were in the car leaving the high school and we were singing "shine bright like a diamond" and my phone rang. It was the Doctors office. She let me know that they got the results back. She could tell that I was driving and she asked me if this was a good time to talk. When she said that I knew something was not right with my results. So as I put my ear phone in my ear I was ready to hear what she had to tell me. That's when she told me that the results came back with me having breast cancer. I could not break down and cry because I was driving with my boys in the car. What more could I do but tell her Thank you for letting me know. She was amazed at how upbeat I was. I can't let this get me down. Yes it absolutely sucks that I have breast cancer. I don't want it. She kept apologizing to me about the results. I told her it was alright because at least what know what it is and we can figure out the treatments now. I am still so baffled that this is happening to ME!! I have Breast Cancer! It hasn't really sunken in. I have so much to look forward to. So no I am not going to let this beat me. If it does beat me made it is sure going to have one Hell of a Fight. I will not let this defeat me! There is a reason why this is happening to me. I feel like this wouldn't have been handed to me if I wasn't able to handle it. I am not sure how far it is but once I have my MRI done we will now. From there we will do our treatment plan.

I can say that I have the best support group of family and friends behind me. I know that they will be there helping me along this journey. PLEASE, PLEASE check your breasts. This includes you males as well. This all happened with just a cut on my nipple back in April that never healed and it started to hurt me very badly and than I felt a lump. If you have a history of breast cancer in your family please do your monthly self examines. You are probably saying this won't happen to me, it can't. Let me tell ya Breast Cancer or any cancer doesn't discriminate.

I will do my best to blog my journey of this breast cancer beat down. I just wanted to put into words everything. Yes I know it isn't much but I just don't have words to say. I am shocked that this is happening to me. I am not even going to question why. I am just glad that it is found and we can treat it. Depending on the treatment I have to go through will determine if I will continue onto winter quarter.

I am off to bed or going to try to go to sleep. Talk to you all later.

11 comments:

Shannon said...

Love you and I'm here if you ever need to chat. Stay strong.

Anonymous said...

Jackson yes tell that cancer to get ready for a beat down cause thats exactly what we are going to do... We are going to bring out the Black Flag (raid) on that boobie bug... be strong together we stand.... I love you sister.

Loops-A-Daisy said...

I love your background on your blog and your story is one that hits close to home, my grandmother a year and a half ago was diagnosed. Tears have been flowing over the course of a 24 hour period. Know this you are loved and I find you to be a very strong willed person and we will help you get thru this. Love you and thinking of you.

Loops-A-Daisy said...

P.s..I shared your link on my blog as well, I am new to the blogging scene so not sure how to go about doing it.

Anonymous said...

I know you dont know me but just wanted to let you know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. My grandma had brest cancer a few years ago...now cancer free!! :) You will get through this!! I am sure you are a very strong woman and I am sure you havr an AMAZING support group around you!! You WILL beat this "thing" DOWN!! :)

Anonymous said...

You are in my thoughts and prayers. After just having a scare myself last month but my byopsy came back negative I know exactly how you are feeling. My heart goes out to you. YOu are such a talented young lady and God will lead you through this.

The Hockman Girl said...

Sending lots of love and healing energy your way! You CAN beat this! Hugs!

Sarah Lindgren said...

Im sorry that you have to go threw this. Stay strong and never give up you will never be alone in the matter. My boss is fighting breast cancer as well she is fighting it too. My prayers and hopes ate for you and ur kids. <3

J.Jones said...

Thank you all for all the prayers, love and positive thoughts and energy. I really do appreciate it. It means so much to me.

The Crocheted Link said...

Thinking of you!!! God is in control. Crochet and love on those children! Both will help you stay strong!

My Little Lady and Gentleman said...

I just read your story and it's a familiar tale of my life 3 years ago. I was 27 when I found out that I had Hodgkins lymphoma. I went through fertility treatments to harvest eggs and store embryo's. I went through 6 months of chemo, and 1 month of radiation. I was a mother of a 3 year old who didn't understand why mommy was tired all the time and didn't want to play. I worked 40+ hours a week while doing all the treatments. I lost my hair.

The best way to get through it is to remain positive and as active as you can. Having a huge support system will make all the difference. Know that you are not alone in this battle and that many people are thinking about you. Stay strong!!