Starting Fresh

Its been SUCH a long time since I have blogged! I can't believe it! Life is normal and I am forgetful so really no excuses. My shop has it spurts of taking off with orders and slowing down. I hope it gets more business. I have had my fan page open for a year now and my shop really going coming close on its year mark.

Anyways, I am going to try and do my best and start fresh with this whole blogging and everything. I know there are a ton of people who don't read this but I guess its just more of an online journal because I am sure my husband would just be bored to death hearing what I have to say lol. So I get to bore you if you read the whole thing!

The beginning of the year I had wanted to do the Jillian Michael 30 day shred. I started it then stopped and started and stopped. I am not losing any weight nor and I gaining but I can't fit into any of my clothes and its sad and depressing. Last night was my 4yrs wedding anniversary and as a gift I had told my husband to take me clothes shopping. He did and that was very sweet of him to let me drag him around while I found clothes that fit. Well to say the least I HATE shopping right now. One I don't like the shirt size I have to get to fell comfortable in. Its the biggest shirt size I have had to get in such a long time. I am so not even going to go with the pant size. I am sad at what size I am.

I need something to motivate me. I have no energy and no real desire to want to work out. I Just want to wake up one morning and Poof be skinny. Yes, I know I am dreaming don't we all wish it could be that easy? I mean its possible if I had the $$ to go get lipo but ya that is so not happening. I think a lot of this debbie downer has to do with the birth control I am on as well. Yes I like that I don't have to remember to take a pill every day but GOSH I have so many of the side effects. Its seriously effecting me and I know it. I am not happy about it. I go in on the 18th to talk to the new dr about it. I hope I can get it taken out and go back on the pill and start feeling like my normal self again.

So last night I was talking to my husband about giving myself a reward for sticking to the 30day shred. Yes its going to be a BIG challenge for me. One it's not fun working out with a 3 1/2yr old who is up in your face and then trying to not step on your 7month old who is crawling lol. So this is what I want to get myself IF I can complete this challenge and lose some weight.

I want to get this swimming suit for the summer which is literally around the corner. Its cute and I know that my body won't be ready for a two piece any time soon. I wasn't lucky enough to get the body that goes back to normal after a baby, lol. This swim suit will be the MOST expensive I have EVER gotten myself but HEY if I stick to the work out I think I deserve it, right?

Another reward that I would like to get myself is a dress for my niece and sisters quinceanera. I found the perfect dress that I would like to wear. Their colors are lime green and a hot pink!

This dress is pricey just like the swim suit but I love it! So these are my motivation! I just hope it really works for me. I would love to look good for the summer and for the quinceanera as well. I am tired of being disgusted with my body. Its sad and I want to cry. So I hope these two items really help motivate me to work out and look good and to help me feel better about myself.

Well thanks for reading my ramblings! I will keep you updated on my progress. I did my work out today and now its time to do my house chores.

Christmas is just a hop, skip, and jump

I don't know where the time has gone! I will say that it sure has flown by so quickly. Like I blinked my eye and BAM its 6 days til Christmas! This time of year is generally hard for me with being so far from my family. I have gotten better over the years but it's still hard no matter how many years its been. The last Holidays that I spent with my family was in 2004 I believe. It was the Christmas right when I got back from my deployment. So its been 6 years away from my family during the Holidays. I have been home to visit around the holiday but never on the day. One year we will all be there to spend the holiday with them.

Let's reflect back on 2010.....January we moved out here to VA. I was very nervous and scared all at the same time. I had to keep saying "you make the best out of what you get" in my mind many times. I have never been one to make friends quickly because I am shy or for some reason people find me intimidating. We had found out we were pregnant with baby number 2 and the morning sickness was starting to kick my butt. I didn't know any body and I could tell that CJ was just getting restless of not being able to do anything with other kids. So when the weather warmed up a bit we would go out in the little back yard area and play. He made friends with the neighbor kid right behind us, how I wish I could so easily make friends like kids can do. Anyways I tried to talk to the kids mom and be friend. For some reason unknown to me it just didn't work. She didn't seem like she even wanted to talk to me, like I had a third eye on my forehead or something.

Time went on and of course I got bigger. I finally got tired of not know how to get around here. I love google maps, lol. CJ and I went to a park and low and behold I met a lovely lady named, Paula. Her kids were so nice and so was she. We started talking and what not, great lady. Of course with my luck and meeting awesome people I found out she was pcsing in like 6wks or so. Then I met another lady and we met once in awhile she live clear across the other side of the Hampton tunnel. Then we just lost contact with each other. Cafemom has been a savior for me when it comes to meeting people. I had a lovely lady, Wendy, create a new group out here as she was moving and wanted to meet new moms in the area. The group is awesome and I have meet some lovely ladies and I am so ever grateful that she made the group and it became active. CJ loves all his new friends as so do I. Great woman and kids! Everyone I have met out here I adore! They are all the greatest.

Some where along the lines I decided to be brave and open up an online shop. I did and I am very excited and proud of it! It is my baby just like my boys. It is still new and ya I haven't gotten tons of business but I have gotten some! I just need to get my name out there and find the people who love handmade and will buy handmade and understand all the work that goes into it. I cant wait for the new year to come, I have great plans for the shop. I have gotten discourage but I know it will get better with time, I just need to stick with it and believe in it.

We added our lovely addition to our family, our second son! I just can not tell you how much I love that little boy. I never knew my heart could grow so much bigger and some much love is filled in it. At first trying to deal with 2 kids was hard, now I think I have the hang of it. My life is good and I love where I am now. I couldn't imagine it any other way. I am so honestly thankful and grateful that my husband and I took the chance of being together. We have a wonderful family. I just cant put into words how much I love my family! I just want to squeeze them all with so much love! It could be that I love to just see the two little boys that my husband and I created. Knowing that they have family who love them just as much as we do and would do anything and everything for them.

Oh yes and my mom got to come visit the East Coast for the first time. She came here to help with my Jamison and CJ. It was the best week ever and I didn't want her to leave. When she left it made me realise how much I really do miss my family. It saddens me because they don't get the chance to watch my boys grow up because we are military and are always moving every 3 yrs or so. I take as much pictures as I can for them so they watch them grow up through photos. CJ knows who his Tia's are and his Uncle and he remembers things for our visits that I wouldn't think he would remember. I just wish we were so much closer. We got to take my mom out to DC as well. She had a great time and so did we.

We sold our house which is a great relief. So many things have happened this year for us and maybe that is why it has flown by. I cant wait for the new year to start. I have so much planned with the shop and family. I plan on helping CJ out with stuff to get him ready for school, we are going out to WA at the end of June for my sister and nieces birthday party, and getting things for the shop.

To those who are moaning and groaning about going to families this holiday please be happy and grateful that you are close to them. There are some Military and Civilian families that are far from their families and would love to be there to spend the holidays and make new memories with them. I just wanted to wish you all a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.

Thanks for reading this!

SooooOOOOOOooo......

I am no longer pregnant...WOOHOO!! Which means that I now have TWO kids, which I am STILL trying to get use too! I can't believe I am a mother to two little boys. They are my world and I love them so very much! My sleeping schedule is all wacked because of JJ but I still need to be up and mobile for CJ. So I'll tell you the story of the day we went in to have baby JJ.

Morning of Sept 21st 2010 the hubs and I wake up at 5am to get ready. We leave the house at around 5:30am and get to the hospital like 15min before 6am. We check in and let them know that we are there for our scheduled C-section. They have us wait in the waiting room, which at that time was alright. At about 7am they call me to the back to check on my vitals and on the baby. Everything was good. I asked the nurse when I was going to be called back and they told me in about an hour, which would make it 8am. So I go back out to the waiting room. Time comes and goes and still I have not been called back. I am so uncomfortable from sitting in the uncomfortable chairs and of course tired! I am getting pissed and so is the hubs. We keep asking when we are getting to the back and I keep getting the same damn answer, in an hour. Finally hubby had it and gave them an ear full. FINALLY at 10:30 we get called back. Mind you I have had nothing to eat since dinner the night before.

I couldn't believe how long it took them to get me back there! I was just so upset and tired all I wanted to do was cry! I was so happy when they called me back. I was more relieved because I could FINALLY be comfortable. I was very anxious to have the baby and was upset for having to wait. I get all hooked up to the machines and the IV is in with fluids going. The baby monitor is on me and I can hear the baby as well as see when I am having a contraction. We have the Dr come in, the anesthesiologist, and the head nurse come in for me to sign paperwork. Here I am all happy and waiting to go back to the OR.

So we head back to the OR at who knows what time. I didn't check the clock to be honest I was just excited to get it over and done with so I could eat some food and meet my baby! They take me to the OR and Hubs has to stay back for a moment. They will get him after I am all prepped. So I am in the OR I get my spinal done and OMG that works so quickly! I am numb from nipples down and I cant feel anything but just pressure. I am starting to get a little anxiety because my hubs isn't there yet. Before I went back I had to take this drink for heartburn and OMG it tasted so gross. Well with that being the only thing in my stomach and me starting to have anxiety and starting to feel like I am going to pass out I end up throwing up. It was so nasty. After it was all out of my system I felt 100 times better. They finally bring in my husband and I was so relieved to see him. By the time he came in they were already cutting me and getting to the baby. I was talking and laughing while I was laying on the table it was a great time. Then I hear my baby boy cry! I was super excited. Hubs went over to the side where they were cleaning him up and checked him out.

Here is our sons first picture! He weighted 8lbs2oz and 21inches long! My biggest baby! I was VERY surprised that he was an 8lber! So they got JJ all cleaned up and did their quick checks and everything. Then I got to see him for the first time.

I was speechless when I saw my baby for the first time. I didn't know what to say at all. He is so precious to me! It was instant love, love at first site, well more like love at first kick, lol. I finally knew why he was kicking me so much. He was getting to long for my belly, lol. I didn't get to hold him long because he had to go to the NICU to get evaluated and monitored. I was wheeled away to the recovery area! All the people working on my in the OR were amazing and so sweet! They made me feel so comfortable and confident in them! Here I am in the recovery waiting.

After I get out of the recovery I go to my room and they bring in my baby boy. I finally get to hold him and feed him. Yes, of course I was in pain but SOO worth it! To see my baby boy I would go through it all again, with both of my boys! My in-laws came to see the baby of course! They fell in love with him. CJ really didn't know what to think about his baby brother. He did however at one point tell me to put JJ back in my belly, lol. He is so head over heels in love with his baby brother now.

My experience at first at this hospital was not good at all. I was so upset at how they handled things. Once I got in the back everything was better! I was a little scared to go have JJ at this hospital because I had heard so many bad things about it. I will say that I had a great experience and all the nurses and staff where amazing. If you treat them well they will treat you well. I learned that from when I worked in L&D out in TX. They were very good to me.

I also want to say Thank You to my mother in law for coming and watching CJ while I was in the hospital. Thank you to my Mom for coming out as well and being a part of seeing her new grandson so fresh and small and helping me out.

I am sorry this is so long but I thought you all would like to hear my story.

The Time has come!

Well the time is FINALLY here. Tomorrow morning we go in at 6:30 to have our little boy. I SOOO cant wait to get him out and finally meet him. It is just so amazing how our bodies can transform and hold a little human being! We are so excited to meet him. I think our other son knows that his baby brother is coming but not to sure if he really understands. So just wanted to let you all know that our baby will be here tomorrow. I know this is like the shortest blog but I am super excited and dont know what else to write.
Here is a picture of me at 38wks

Next post will be pictures of our new son! Ill do my best to get back on here.

Surprised?

HAHA look its me again. Can you believe that I am posting a second day in a row? That is so unheard of from me! LOL. SO what was your day? What did ya do? Anything Exciting? Eh nothing here sent out a package to my friend, got some lunch, and then came home to tackle a large about of laundry that needed to be folded. I am done for the night with folding but I have 3 new loads that need to be folded here in the next day or so!

All of Jamisons clothes are clean and put up! I so do not Miss folding infant clothes. There are so many. I cant believe CJ had a crap ton! It just baffles me! Oh and OMG the bibs! He has a TON as well! One to many to tell you the truth!

Well I just wanted to drop in and say hello! Tomorrow we are going to the Zoo and friday is when we schedule our C-section! I cant wait! Woot Woot! I am excited to know when my baby boy will be welcomed into this world! Can you believe Augsut is almost over? Where the heck did the time go?

Well I just wanted to tell you all to check out this blog http://craftyjonescreations.blogspot.com/2010/08/giveaway.html there is a giveaway going on. So if you like to win some free stuff stop by and check it out! I will update information about when my C-section is when we find out! This week is seeming to go by so super slow!

Oh just wanted to share a picture of my crazy boy CJ!

He's ready for the Fall are you?

Monday, Monday!

So I am glad that the weekend is over with! It was very busy! Friday CJ and I went to my ultrasound to see baby JJ! CJ was so excited to see his baby brother. He did very well with it just being him and I at the dr appt. My Husband was flying in from his work trip and didnt make it to the appt on time. The baby was weighting in at like almost 6lbs! I couldnt believe it! OMG he is going to be SOOOO big! I was 34wks on friday and ya not looking forward to seeing how big he is going to be when he is born. I will say that my baby has the cutest chunky cheeks ever! I cant wait to meet him. This mama is tried of holding him in my belly!

Here is my chunky monkey boy! Isnt he adorable?!?! I cant believe how define you can see him in the picture! I already love this boy so much, even though he likes to beat me up! Hes my little boy and CJ loves him too. I can tell that CJ is going to be a great big brother!

After the appointment we waited for my hubs to get home before we headed out to NC for CJs 3rd bday party. We had his party at Chick-fil-a with his friends on Saturday. It was fun I must say! He got spoiled and NO I dont have any pictures with me. They are on my mother in laws camera and I am going to have to wait to see the pictures. I was happy when the party was over. Boy oh boy did those boys wear me out even though all I did was sit there LOL. We left Saturday after the party back to VA because my in laws needed to come out here and needed a place so we came back! Chuck and I started moving the baby stuff into CJs room and we got a few things done.

Sunday we got the crib set up and I got to wash the little baby clothes! I cant believe how many clothes CJ had! Its a crap ton! So the clothes are washed I just need to fold them about put them away. I cant wait for my monkey boy to get here! He is killing me!

Today we had CJs 3yr wellness check up. He did really well. We are getting him reevaluated for speech to see where he is at. I hope he doesnt have to take it but if he does he does. I did some cleaning nothing to big, lol. Then I sat down and crocheted some. I also got some sewing done! As a matter of fact I need to finish up what I started with my sewing! So I will end this and hope you all had a great weekend!

Jackie

Emotional Overload

I don't know what it is about today but my emotions are just a huge roller coaster. I woke up just fine and dandy this morning. We went to Wal-Mart and got a couple things for dinner and on the way home I was just irritable! I don't know why I was irritable but I just was. When we got home I was still in the mood and then it changed to me wanting to ball my eye out. I am all over the place today and I hate it. I cant control it at all.
So I jumped in the shower to try and cool off a bit and think, get a clear head as to why I like this. I think my consensus is because 1. I am 32wks pregnant to my hormones are all over the place; 2. my 3yr old is mommy whats this whats that?; and 3. I am not near my family and friends. Yes I am a military wife and I should be use to being away from my family. I have been a military spouse since I was 19yrs old and left home when I was 21yrs old. So I haven't been around my family in years. I have my in laws that are three hours away from us but its just NOT the same. I want MY family that close to us. The closest that I have been to my family since I moved out of state in 2005 was TX. TX was still a long ways away from them all the way in WA but it was the closest. I miss them and its going to be another nephew/grandson that they are not going to be around to watch grow up.
I just think everything is just hitting me all at once today. Im due at the middle to end of next month and I just feel everything piling up and so forth. I know that if I was back home in WA my family would be there all the time to help me with whatever. Yes this life was chosen for me, to be a military wife, I wouldn't have it any other way, but you would think it would get easier, right? Ya not so much, you still miss your family. My mom will be coming out when the baby is due and will be here for a week. If it was up to me I'd have her stay for a MONTH! Of course she cant because she has to go to work and has my sisters back home as well to take care of.
Just thought I'd get this off of my chest since its just putting a HUGE damper on my day. Oh ya and I also miss my friends out in TX to so very much. I know that they would be there for me if I was still there. They do try their best to be through the Internet but its not the same as being around them and calling them to tell them to come hang out with me and CJ. I guess I am more of the poor little Ole me stage right now, lol.
Oh ya here is my 32wk picture that I promised.