Starting Fresh

Its been SUCH a long time since I have blogged! I can't believe it! Life is normal and I am forgetful so really no excuses. My shop has it spurts of taking off with orders and slowing down. I hope it gets more business. I have had my fan page open for a year now and my shop really going coming close on its year mark.

Anyways, I am going to try and do my best and start fresh with this whole blogging and everything. I know there are a ton of people who don't read this but I guess its just more of an online journal because I am sure my husband would just be bored to death hearing what I have to say lol. So I get to bore you if you read the whole thing!

The beginning of the year I had wanted to do the Jillian Michael 30 day shred. I started it then stopped and started and stopped. I am not losing any weight nor and I gaining but I can't fit into any of my clothes and its sad and depressing. Last night was my 4yrs wedding anniversary and as a gift I had told my husband to take me clothes shopping. He did and that was very sweet of him to let me drag him around while I found clothes that fit. Well to say the least I HATE shopping right now. One I don't like the shirt size I have to get to fell comfortable in. Its the biggest shirt size I have had to get in such a long time. I am so not even going to go with the pant size. I am sad at what size I am.

I need something to motivate me. I have no energy and no real desire to want to work out. I Just want to wake up one morning and Poof be skinny. Yes, I know I am dreaming don't we all wish it could be that easy? I mean its possible if I had the $$ to go get lipo but ya that is so not happening. I think a lot of this debbie downer has to do with the birth control I am on as well. Yes I like that I don't have to remember to take a pill every day but GOSH I have so many of the side effects. Its seriously effecting me and I know it. I am not happy about it. I go in on the 18th to talk to the new dr about it. I hope I can get it taken out and go back on the pill and start feeling like my normal self again.

So last night I was talking to my husband about giving myself a reward for sticking to the 30day shred. Yes its going to be a BIG challenge for me. One it's not fun working out with a 3 1/2yr old who is up in your face and then trying to not step on your 7month old who is crawling lol. So this is what I want to get myself IF I can complete this challenge and lose some weight.

I want to get this swimming suit for the summer which is literally around the corner. Its cute and I know that my body won't be ready for a two piece any time soon. I wasn't lucky enough to get the body that goes back to normal after a baby, lol. This swim suit will be the MOST expensive I have EVER gotten myself but HEY if I stick to the work out I think I deserve it, right?

Another reward that I would like to get myself is a dress for my niece and sisters quinceanera. I found the perfect dress that I would like to wear. Their colors are lime green and a hot pink!

This dress is pricey just like the swim suit but I love it! So these are my motivation! I just hope it really works for me. I would love to look good for the summer and for the quinceanera as well. I am tired of being disgusted with my body. Its sad and I want to cry. So I hope these two items really help motivate me to work out and look good and to help me feel better about myself.

Well thanks for reading my ramblings! I will keep you updated on my progress. I did my work out today and now its time to do my house chores.